"Well, no," Peter says, putting the full extent of his awkwardness on display by simply existing awkwardly on the bed. There was something awkward about the way he said that, something awkward about the way his face looked while he said it, and something awkward about the way his body shifted immediately afterwards.
Peter withdraws his hand. He wonders if Alec finds it offensive he asked him to promise. But this is kind of big. Probably not as big as breaking a condom three times, which was why it was a given that he wouldn't talk about it, even without a promise. This is probably minor in the grand scheme of things, at least to Alec. The sort of thing he wouldn't think twice about mentioning because it was so insignificant.
"I just..."
Peter dampens his lips.
"...keep putting a break on things, and it's sometimes really awkward, like this morning--"
Peter clamps his mouth shut, then he opens it again. It takes a moment before he's finally able to push the words forward, and when he's finally able to pull them loose, they come out quickly:
"I don't know if I'm satisfying her because I can't do things yet."
Mortification overcomes Peter and he suddenly wishes he was talking to Alec from the other side of a bathroom door instead of face-to-face, but then that would just remind him of everything that happened this morning. Sure, they talked afterwards and everything was fine, but that didn't stop the embarrassment from seeping into him slowly like rust corroding vibranium.
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Date: 2018-05-24 06:14 pm (UTC)Peter withdraws his hand. He wonders if Alec finds it offensive he asked him to promise. But this is kind of big. Probably not as big as breaking a condom three times, which was why it was a given that he wouldn't talk about it, even without a promise. This is probably minor in the grand scheme of things, at least to Alec. The sort of thing he wouldn't think twice about mentioning because it was so insignificant.
"I just..."
Peter dampens his lips.
"...keep putting a break on things, and it's sometimes really awkward, like this morning--"
Peter clamps his mouth shut, then he opens it again. It takes a moment before he's finally able to push the words forward, and when he's finally able to pull them loose, they come out quickly:
"I don't know if I'm satisfying her because I can't do things yet."
Mortification overcomes Peter and he suddenly wishes he was talking to Alec from the other side of a bathroom door instead of face-to-face, but then that would just remind him of everything that happened this morning. Sure, they talked afterwards and everything was fine, but that didn't stop the embarrassment from seeping into him slowly like rust corroding vibranium.